" u are

always in ur own realm of darkness. "

its feelings time:
thoughts on my last week of binge drinking...

and so ive decided although ill ease up on it, i wont quit.
albeit all the surly things said and done. its just my nature
at this juncture in my life. ive got a big mouth and i run it
more often than id like, and im more often than not, im left
with this feeling of, "crap, what did i say last night."

so im just gonna run with it and not be as aware as i can be.
just deal with that sad fact that, yes! i am unhappy and i over
compensate by saying stupid shit like i dont emote, cuz that
act in itself is to emote something im saying i dont do.

confusing enough? yea. i know.. im talking in myself.

just gonna get let it happen and more/less be
unemotional/emotional about that fact.

end.